Dear self,

Know that no one else know yourself better than you (I mean of course Allah knows me better).

Know that the decision that you are going to make is the one that you yourself agreed. 

Know that there are actually a lot more things you can do out there, you just haven't found the right one yet.

Know that you do this because you know that your family is much more important than anything else. 

And believe that Allah itu Maha Pemurah. Murah rezeki doesn't necessarily means kaya dengan duit. 

Suami yang baik, soleh, anak yang comel, mendengar kata, sihat tubuh badan, mertua yang baik, itu semua rezeki jugak. Jadi, jangan sempitkan fikiran solely on money. 

Okay? 

Everything's going to be okay. Your husband's there for you, and He is definitely will be there through and through. It's just the matter of whether you remember Him or not.