اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ
It has been 124 days since I got married. It has been a wonderful journey, well there are ups and down as well. But let us just count all of these as blessings. :)
I got married on the 7th day of Raya which is on Saturday Morning. To tell you the truth, weeks before that, I did not feel anything but all I wanted was all of these to be fast forward and ended as soon as possible.
It was really tiring you know, handling all the stuff; caterer, the hantaran, make up arrangement, the dewan, the application, the dress and other stuff. I worked outside of Seremban, and the kenduri was held in Seremban. So most of the time I was not around. So I am only in Seremban during weekends which means banyak office tutup.
Abah, Mak and Naem yang banyak tolong. Oh, we did a joint kenduri which was a very rational and the best decision that we have ever made. Really. Cost wise, energy wise.
So my in laws settle kan the doorgifts. and a few other things.
And I'm glad that my husband tak tinggal jauh dari Seremban which make everything easier to handle. Really.
My sister and I did all the hantarans ourselves. Kita puas hati and it's cheaper. Above was one of the dulang. (hantaran is like a gift we give to our partner. Usually, it's given in return with another gift. There's like a specific amount that we have to give. Usually, the bride's side have to give 2 more than the groom's side.)
Eg: 7 - 5
5 - 3
and so on.
I chose my own design of henna. I don't really like the design that covers the whole hands, serabut. Even my mom, dislike it. At first, she questioned the need of me wearing henna but I said, I don't like wearing henna or inai anymore so, let me just wear it this once, on my special day. So, she said yes. I wore it the night before, I asked my high school friend to do it. So it's cheaper. Haha.
The whole week, starting the first day of Raya, I was already on leave. But, honestly, I don't feel anything, no nervousness or anything at all. But I lose my appetite, tremendously. Raya just makam sikit je. Tengok rendang daging paru sedap yang mak buat pun tak berselera sangat.
But on Saturday morning, the MUA that I hired came to my house. She asked whether I was okay or not. I said I'm okay. At that time, I was wearing my baju nikah dah, dah mandi everything, so just tunggu nak dimake up kan and pakai tudung.
However, by the time she did my eyes, which took the longest time ever, my legs doesn't seem to stay still. The cold room started to feel warm. Oh my god, the feeling that I could not describe until now.
Months before the special day, we agreed to not contact each other or see each other. So, I was deadly nervous because of the event plus I have to face him. OMG, can you imagine how I was I feeling at that time? I was wearing make up and that doesn't really help. When I stepped in the Masjid Negeri, I felt like all eyes were looking at me. I have no where to look at. Nasib baik, kakak, kak long, and #thejirans were there all along. I saw a glimpse of him at the corner of my eyes. I dare not to even look at him, like seriously.
I sat beside Mak and Mak Teh on my right. I think at that time, Mak was nervous too. And without realizing it, actually my hands already turned ice cold and started shaking, extremely. Yes, extremely. I am not exaggerating. If you asked my families, they will tell you how bad my nervousness was. Haha. Mak Teh noticed it, so she hold my hands, both of my hands tightly so that it won't be noticeable.
He sat there, a few steps away from me, looking handsome and calm as ever. *Pengantin Perempuan yang over macam dia yang kene terima akad tu. LOL*
I am aware that the Kadi memang akan tanya soalan dekat Pengantin lelaki usually. Tapi tengah cover nervousness and the shaky and sweaty hands tu, Kadi boleh buat lawak.
" Memandangkan semua dah ada ni. Hmmm, bolehlah saya tanya beberapa soalan dekat Pengantin Perempuan sebelum saya nikahkan kamu berdua."
Ya Allah! Kau rasa? Memang makin menggila degupan jantung ni. No kidding.
Dah lah nervous, apa pun takleh fikir, kang tak boleh jawap soalan ni, tak boleh kahwin nanti macam mana? Dalam kepala dah berpusing jawapan2 common. Rukun Iman, Rukun Islam, Shahadah, Rukun Solat etc.
"Betul ke, dia ni *tunjuk dekat Afiz*, bakal suami awak?"
Oh My God!
Gelak jelah mampu walaupun dalam hati dah rasa nak menangis. Nasib baik soalan tu. terus laju senyum malu2 sambil angguk.
So after all that, I am officially taken. The wife to Afiz Fazriz and insyaAllah the mother to our children. :)
So, I was supposed to study now actually but got distracted to write an entry. HAHA. I have an exam coming this Saturday. Pray for me, please and thank you!
Anyway. Happy 124th Daysary Sayang! I love you!
