DON'T QUIT

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;
When the road you’re trudging seems all uphill;
When the funds are low, and the debts are high;
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh;
When care is pressing you down a bit
Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;
The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;
And you can never tell how close you are;
It may be near when it seems afar.
So, stick to the fight when you’re hardest hit -
It’s when things go wrong that you mustn’t quit.

- Anonymous

Tak bertajuk lagi~

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ


Jadilah macam air sungai yang takkan berhenti mengalir walau ada batu yang menghalang.


"you get what I mean right?" ;)

ASDAF

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

"Best tak ada adik?" tu adalah soalan common yang ana akan tanya pada orang yang rapat dengan ana. sebab apa? erm.. simply because nak merasa ada adik. :)

semalam ana rasa bahagia, happy, teruja.. sebab ana berpeluang merasa macam ana mempunyai adik. Hehehh. I went to ASDAF yesterday with le geng. Jumpa budak2 ni, seriously cute. Tak adalah lama mana stay dengan diorang. But somehow, ana dah jatuh sayang dengan diorang.

Rosie(idk how to spell her name), Norza, Faizah, Nurul, Sarah, Erna, Nurin, Yati, Katrina, Linda, Atikah dan ramai lagi. hehehh. solat Asar berjemaah dengan diorang. with Norza by my side. :') I hugged her during dua', I heard her voice, repeating the dua' recited by Ustaz.    

Felt like having a sister, a sister yang perlukan my protection, my attention. Habes dua', salam2 dengan diorang. and I kissed their cheeks. :) Then, ana lipat-lipat sejadah and minta tolong Norza untuk tolong, eheh, Comey!

Main pepsi cola dengan budak-budak ni. ahahaaa, memang ana pakai seluar pulak kan masa tu. ish ish ish.(geleng-geleng kepala) main tukar2 selipar dengan Faizah sebab selipar dia comel ada bear. :P ngehehhh.

Kena buli dengan Rosie. -____- Norza bawak ana jalan-jalan satu ASDAF. masa tengah jalan tu, ana pegang lah bahu dia, dia jalan sebelah ana and paling comel ialah bila dia pun cuba nak jalan peluk pinggang ana. ahahaa. dah lah kecik, tak sampai. :P ana bagi m&m dekat Norza. 

Duduk dekat dengan Dilah, tengok Dilah ajar Yati Maths, then Norza datang sebab nak makan keropok. Ana offer dia untuk duduk dengan ana. atas pangkuan ana. aaaaaaa~ :') Comel lagi.

Bila mana Atikah kena kacau dengan budak lelaki sampai menangis, I was there. To give the comfort she need. hugged her. :') 

Bila dah nak balik, ana naik asrama diorang, sorang and terjumpa Rosie. Bila ana cakap kitorang dah nak balik, Rosie bangun and terus peluk ana. Ya Allah, macam mana tak jatuh sayang? 

banyak kali jugak salam and peluk Rosie sebenarnya. HAHA, buli balik. ngehehh. lambai diorang dari dalam kereta.

yang takkan dilupakan ialah, "Jangan lupakan saya tau?" Rosie pesan awal2.

p/s: Looking forward to meet them again. Cause I misses them already. 

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اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

There is always Him, for you to turn to. :)

Whenever you feel depressed:-

1. Ask Him. He listens: Dua

"Turn each anxiety, each fear and each concern into a Dua (supplication). Look at it as another reason to submit to God and be in Sajdah (prostration), during which you are closest to Allah. God listens and already knows what is in your heart, but He wants you to ask Him for what you want. The Prophet said: Allah is angry with those who do not ask Him for anything (Tirmidhi)."

And there's more to read, click here. :) May Allah ease whatever you do. Amin.

sigh.

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

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اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

Ada something yang berubah. apa? tak pasti. tapi yang pasti, ada rasa kehilangan. ana ke yang berubah? atau situasi? ana sorang je ke yang rasa macam ni? atau sebenarnya orang lain pun  turut merasai? salah ana ke? kalau ya, ana sendiri tak pasti apa salah ana. ana ke yang sebenarnya menjauhkan diri? atau sebaliknya? 

Things that we planned ain't going the way we planned. why? because we are the planner. we are not the one who can make it happen. only Him, the Almighty. 

Pernah tak terfikir kenapa orang yang tak beribadah boleh berjaya, yang tak ditimpa ujian boleh berjaya? Pernah tak terfikir kenapa orang yang dah berusaha sedaya upaya, tapi diberikan ujian dan pada akhirnya masih tak berjaya?

Pertama-tamanya, bersyukurlah ke hadrat Ilahi kerana kita masih berada di bawah ujiannya. Ujian itu bukan bermakna Dia tak suka akan kita mahupun tak nak kita berjaya. TETAPI, dia ingin menguji kita. Dia sayang akan kita, hamba-hambaNya. Kerana itu dia turunkan ujian demi ujian untuk kita hadapi. Ingatlah, Allah takkan menduga seseorang melebihi kemampuannya. 

Mungkin kita akan berfikir, ujian ni sangat berat dan kita akan mula berkata, betapa beratnya ujian ni untuk kita lalui. Tapi pernah tak kita terfikir betapa istimewanya kita kerana di beri ujian sebegitu rupa? Pernah tak kita terfikir betapa istimewanya kita kerana diberi ujian sebegitu rupa sebab kalau diletakkan orang lain ditempat kita, mungkin sahaja mereka tak setabah kita. benar, semua orang ada ujian yang berbeza, mengikut kemampuan masing-masing tapi tak semua setabah kita, selemah kita, sekuat kita. Jadi janganlah mengeluh tika diberi ujian, malah bertabahlah kerana hukumnya wajib. berhusnul zhan lah dengan Allah. tersenyumlah dan bergembiralah kerana Allah masih sayang dan pedulikan kita.

Pernah tak kita terfikir, kenapa Allah tak menguji orang-orang yang berbuat dosa dan maksiat padaNya?

Tu namanya istidraj.
Apa itu istidraj? "Istidraj adalah kenikmatan yang Allah berikan walaupun kita ingkar kepadaNya, bukan untuk menandakan Dia tidak kisah akan dosa kita, tetapi menandakan bahawa Dia tidak lagi peduli dengan kita dan hendak membiarkan kita ke neraka. Maka apalah sangat nikmat dunia yang sedikit ini yang Dia berikan terlebih dahulu kepada kita, berbanding nerakaNya yang sangat dahsyat yang akan Dia berikan kepada kita di akhirat sana." -Hilal Asyraf-

Jadi, bersyukurlah andai masih diuji oleh Dia. Dia sayangkan kita. He knows the best and he's the best planner. :) 

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اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

Lama tak dengar berita bukan? hehh. Ana baru kebah dari demam. :/ anyway, Thanks to Fuzah and Ras sebab jaga ana. hehe. belikan bubur, coolfever, bagi makan ubat etc. Alhamdulillah, I'm getting better though flu and cough masih ada somehow, tak demam lagi. 

Semalam sangat berat untuk ana lalui since ana kene attend 3 classes in a row started at 12.40 p.m. Sangat-sangat berat with the flu and batuk. Concentration ana kurang dari hari biasa which was not good. Okay, enough with the whining and stuff. It's not good. 

That weight has been lifted out from me. A bit. I'm sorry for disappointing you. I'll do better next time. insyaAllah.    

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اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

She heard something and so.. that was the time where she could not control the tears from coming out. She tried so hard, to not letting the tears rolling down through her cheeks. As she feel like the burden seemed to be... getting... heavier than before. but somehow, her friend asked her to just let go all of the feelings. in the end, yes. she did cried but still, she didn't let it all out. 

She has been thinking about calling that particular person, but she does not have the guts to do so. She's a coward. yes. that's a fact. 

someone saw she cried that day and that night, that someone gave her an iPad and let her read this one memorable notes.  

"Often what makes us fall into despair is focusing on the wrong things. 

For example, if we’ve sinned, we focus on the sin, rather than the Most Merciful.

 If we’re broken, we focus on the break instead of Al Jabbar, the One who mends.

 If we are in pain, we focus on the pain itself, instead of on the One who removes all pain.

 If we are wounded, we focus on the wound instead of on the One who heals all wounds.

 If we’re scared, we focus on the fear, instead of the Protector.

 And if we’re facing a problem, we see the problem, but not the One who can solve it. 

We see the lion, but not the lion tamer.

We see the imperfections of dunya, but not the perfection of Allah.

We see the immediate, but not the Tomorrow, the tree, but not the fruit, the thorn, but not the rose. All our pain, all our despair, all our hopelessness, stems from looking at the creation, instead of the Creator. 

Ask yourself: what is your heart looking at?”

-Yasmin Mogahed   "

Then she realized, she need to change. she need to change the way she look at everything that is happening in her life. as she remember this, "Laa yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus’aha; Allah does not oblige a soul save to the extent of its capacity.."

May Allah ease everything. Amin.

Hi life.

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

they always contact each other for the past two weeks of holidays. Each day passed makes they both nervous since that very one day confirm gonna come. 

so, the day has come. she called her. with a sad voice actually. both with a sad voice but pathetically they both could not cry. which makes the whole thing worse. they sighed, and worried about what will happen in the very near future. like really. they didn't tell others. just the two of them.

that evening, she called 'her'. and what 'she' can tell is that she is crying. and she can tell that 'she' is completely down. and what makes she worried is that she is not with her. to give the comfort she need. to hold her so that she will never felt like she was alone. 

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what did she do for the last 2 days after that scary day came? she could not even stay sit. she always in her own world. she kept sighing and she kept staring for nothing. she felt like crying but she can't. 

and that final day came, they finally met. :) they hugged, like they never meet each other before. in the bus, they both started to talk about what they supposed to talk one day before. about what? future!

while waiting for that slow bus to came, they went somewhere, to have a girl talk, just the two of them. that was the only time, she felt like she's going to cry but something stopped her from doing so. :/ that was the only time where tears were brimming in her eyes. but that's just it. they just stopped half way. deep down inside, she's hoping that they will still able to find that girly time together.

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finally, the day has came. she went to her unit. spending time together, thinking about what should(s) and what should not do. what are they gonna do to fix the whole thing back to normal. to be honest, they both almost gave up, but luckily, they both have HIM. :) Alhamdulillah. and they have each other. they decided to have a nice session which is trying to draw whatever they have in mind. she is struggling caused she did not know what to draw since, to be honest there's a lot of stuff playing around in her mind, and as they only have 5 minutes to finish them all. 

as a result, she drew a couple of students, with a teacher in front. which means she just missed school. her old school. 

while she just drew a sad face which looked horrible and she thought that that wasn't a face but a dead tree. -___- she wrote a lot actually instead of drawing since she ain't that good in drawing. the only thing she can draw is just 'orang lidi'. she's a pro. :P

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what she's hoping now is just a hope. a chance. and forgiveness. from both of her parents, siblings and friends. for not being able to make them proud. she has tried her best but yet, maybe the effort aren't enough. she may look okay, she may look fine, she may look happy, she may be smiling, she may be laughing but the truth is............. only herself, she and Him know. for now. 

she's afraid actually. sometimes, knowing the fact that the next day gonna come make her stomach feel funny. make that burden getting heavier. but she's glad and grateful for having her by her side. and for always having Him.

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dear she who should not be name,

i love you for the sake of Allah, insyaAllah. :) thanks for everything. thanks for all the support. and may this undang-undang yang we create together can be fulfilled. heheh. be strong. Remember this ' Laa yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus' ahaa'.

" Tanpa halangan, matlamat bukanlah satu impian." :) we are gonna go through this together. okay?

p/s : grammar tak betul pung. alalalalala~ and ana tak bukak fb nor twitter lagi. tak deactivate tapi still tak bukak. and blog mungkin akan jarang juga since ana kene more focus on what I am doing now. :) till then. do take care of yourself.

assalamualaikum.