Saya dulu pelajar bawah dari average jugak

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

When I was in Form 4 in SMK KGV, honestly, like what people always said, Form 4 is a honeymoon year. Why? Sebab baru habis PMR. And so I did.

I flunked. Literally. Rasa masa form 4, banyak gila markah yang Cikgu Azmiah tulis guna pen merah on my report card. With that being said, can you tell me how many times did Abah came to my school for Hari Perjumpaan IbuBapa? HAHA none, yes none. My report card during form 4 was all signed by yours truly, Nurazira Abd Ghani. Sorry Cikgu Azmiah. :P

Sebenarnya masa Form 4 tu, saya tengah rebel, rebel for not being able to be in 4 Izzuddin, class for Lukisan Kejuruteraan sebab my result for PMR tak memenuihi requirement yang minima. I swear, I love maths, especially paper 2 yang kena lukis the view of a 3D cube or whatsoever. Jadi saya terpaksa berada di kelas Sastera, 4 Alauddin (before it was changed to 5 melewar when I was in Form 5). Being rebel, I was, I refused to pay my attention to the classes, be it Ekonomi Asas or Prinsip Perakaunan. My table was at the very back, and I always had a Malay novel that I read whenever I had the chance, yes even when Cikgu ada dalam kelas tengah ajar Kunci Kira-kira atau ajar pasal ekonomi campuran. Sejarah? Tak payah cakap, merah je sentiasa, failed. Yes, I am talking the truth ni. Additional Mathematics lagilah. Nak lepas 30% pun susah.

Tengoklah dua subjek gagal. apa je yang A? See, saya tak menipu okay? Masa ni, Modern Mathematics pun saya rasa susah. 

This was when I was in Form 5 lah tapi.

Serius tak ingat what makes me change, what gives me the motivation to study harder. Serius. But my results changed when I was in Form 5. I can't remember whether I changed masa akhir tahun form 4 or awal tahun form 5. But what I do remember is that, saya pergi kelas tambahan, tuition like everywhere. Serius.

Abah, Mak or even kengkadang abang2 yang tolong hantarkan. Kelas tambahan yang cikgu sekolah buat, saya attend. Semua latihan cikgu bagi saya buat. Tak cukup lagi, pergi kedai buku and saya beli buku latihan sendiri. Buat dalam kelas. Tak faham, pergi bilik guru personally tanya cikgu. (selalunya addmaths lah).

Prinsip perakaunan, saya tuition pun still dengan cikgu sekolah saya, Cikgu Azmiah, sebab dia ada buat kelas tuition outside school, every Friday Night. And then I did pergi tuition dengan sorang Pakcik dari Indonesia pasal Addmaths dekat rumah dia. Walaupun susah sikit nak faham dia cakap apa, but dia membantu sikit. Kekadang tu kitorang yang ajar dia >.<

And then pernah tuition dekat Ampangan, Cikgu Aini from SASER. Dia ajar addmaths jugak. Not only that, masa pertengahan tahun, I attended an intensive study week dekat tempat tuition yang sama untuk Addmaths and Akaun but tak sempat nak habiskan hari terakhir sebab I was admitted to the hospital sebab dengue fever. 

I changed a lot that I remembered one of my classmates told me that cikgu2 ramai yang sebut2 nama saya masa perjumpaan Ibubapa dan Guru masa pertengahan tahun. Tahu tak? I got lots of A's, Alhamdulillah. And that time, saya berani nak jemput Abah datang ambik report card. HAHA. Tak sign report card sendiri dah. Serius. :P

So, malam semalam mak abah dan saya pergi makan luar and kitorang lalu jalan yang abah selalu guna masa hantar saya pergi tuition. haha, tetiba rindu and terharu. Terharu sebab teringat balik how determined I was back then and how abah and mak sanggup hantar and ambik saya balik from tuition and pay for the fees. :')

And now, here I am. A student in Iowa State University, Iowa, United States of America.

My message here is, kut kalau ada adik2 atau even kawan2 sebaya yang baca entry saya ni and rasa nak give up sebab result flunked, don't. Why? Sebab Allah ada. Allah akan sentiasa tolong kita kalau kita ikhlas dengan apa yang kita buat. Example? Me, myself. Walaupun saya taklah hebat mana, but I can be a good example too sebab saya pun pernah jatuh, both for studies and life. And Alhamdulillah Allah still ada untuk saya. Believe me, don't give up. Keep Striving. Result teruk doesn't mean the world is going to end. Okay? Doa banyak2, repair balik hubungan dengan Allah and cuba belajar balik apa kesilapan kita dulu. Cuba study cara lain, mana tahu cara kita study sekarang tak suit dengan kita that's why kita susah nak faham apa yang kita belajar ke. And jangan malu nak bertanya kalau tak faham. Bak kata orang melayu, "Malu bertanya sesat jalan."

Okay? Until then. :)

Oh di kesempatan ini, Happy Teacher's Day untuk semua guru dan lecturer di mana jua anda berada. :)