busy

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

kesibukan ni Alhamdulillah membantu mengalihkan perhatian. insyaAllah.

me

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

sometimes, you might find me laughing with no reason. sometimes, you might see me teasing you. sometimes, you might see me smiling to myself. sometimes, you probably hear my sigh. 

too many things to juggle. too many things to think. too many things to get done. 

at one point, I realize, I have no time for myself. (except when I'm facing Him) I'm not asking for something wonderful. Just a little time for myself. To do the things that I enjoy to do.

this coming few weeks. I wont be able to find that some time. serious. summer semester. too short. we have to rush almost everything within this short sem.

at one point, if I can't find the right time, I just need someone. to hear what I wanna say. 

If I think, it has reach my limitation, silence is where you'll find me :) 

end~

i'm lost and i'm looking for it

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

There something inside her, yelling. wanting so bad to wear that piece of cloth. she bought it roughly about 4 days ago but then, she can't. she has to consider about the situation surrounds her. at the same time, there's another situation where she thinks she have to wear that piece of cloth. but then, there's an alarm sounds inside her head. trying to tell her to not to. since she will have to face quite a number of problems. 

and now, she's trying to find that one solid reason, one strong courage, one person to assure her... that everything will be fine. nothing will ever goes wrong. and she's not doing the wrong thing. and it's almost time. yet, there's another constraint that she'll have to consider.

she's under pressure. proves? well, there's a lot of pink spots appears on her forehead where she rarely have before. exams, research paper, quizzes, resumes, interviews and finals. her timetable are hectic! till the very end of this short semester. she really need a break. end~

1 year Anniversary ADP Taylors University

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

It's has been a year now. We've known each other. Rasa macam baru semalam kita semua struggle untuk SAT and TOEFL classes. Session with Amni and Christine. Hafal-ing the SAT vocabs. Sessions with Prof Adnan. Ice Breaking session. Duduk dekat tangga amphitheatre before our class start. 

On 17th July 2011, kita semua duduk sebelah menyebelah, awkward. tak tahu nak cakap apa. rasa intimidated tengok Imran Hakim sorang pakai blazer. :P Sin Ye yang banyak soalan. heheee.

All the celebrations (birthday party, dinner, events, ADP farewell dinner, trip to Penang etc).

Gelak malam2 with my old house mates (Jun, Maha, Yee Wei, Carven) and current house mate(Eera and Eugenia). Masak2 with Amalina, Johnson, all the kakak2, and members of A2012. :)

Broga memories. :)

Petronas Scholars.

Bank Negara Scholars.

JPA scholars. ( half of us)

Some of us are going to fly soon. Very soon. Raymond gonna be the first to fly. :'( Sorry for not being able to send you off. thanks for the accompany during the lunch at Oldtown White Coffee. Take Care there. :)

The people who are going to fly this coming 10th of August, dah plan dgn the others to send you off at KLIA, but sadly.. I just knew that I've WREL finals on that day. gyahhhhhh~ :'( sobs sobs.

Again, sorry.. for not being able to see you guys. to wave at you guys. :'( all I can do is, send you guys off with a du'a. May all of you safely arrive in the States. 

Like my entry before, this goodbye does not mean this bond that we create since last year is going to an end, instead, we're going to build a much more stronger bond. We might not be able to meet each other like we used to, but we will still going to contact each other.. :)

Take care guys. Don't forget us. :) post the pictures of your universities in the States into FB ya? :) 

we'll miss you. we all do. and we loves you and always will. 

Last but not least, Happy 1 year Anniversary to all ADP scholars of 2011. :) It's nice knowing you guys and I wish you guys the very best. 

goodbye

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

I asked En. Ahmad whether he's coming to join us to send our friends to KLIA and he said no because it will be tiring to send people who are going to fly for every batch. yeah. I know. En. Ahmad tambah, dia tak suka berada di suasana yang sedih bila semua nangis-nangis sebab our loved ones going to leave us to the States. :'( that's for sure, i mean for a girl, like me.

However, apa yang menyebabkan saya tertarik dengan kata-kata En. Ahmad is... " That goodbye doesn't mean that's the end, but that goodbye simply means we're starting a new beginning. A new chapter in our life."

True. This goodbye is not the end. We are actually trying to start the new chapter of our life. Your life. My life. We both knows. Even if we didn't put that into words, well... Allah knows.. wallahualam..

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Di kesempatan ini, ana nak mengucapkan selamat menyambut Ramadhan Kareem. Gunakan 30 hari ni sebaik-baiknya.  :)

Assalamualaikum..

situasi

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

tak tak. bukan lagu bunkface tu. bukan bukan. *gelenggeleng kepala*

ni situasi yang tengah di alami.*mukaserius*expectation. well, it's normal for people to have expectation TAPI, kita cuma manusia yang boleh merancang, Allah yang tentukan.. jadi, tak semua expectation kita akan menjadi. keep that in mind ya? rambut sama hitam, hati lainlain. tak semua fikiran sama macam kita. tak semua boleh faham situasi kita. tak semua berminat nak tahu pasal situasi kita. dah kenapa pula ana dah macam guru Bahasa Melayu? semua pepatah keluar. :P

kadangkadang tu rasa macam nak lari je dari situasi ni. lari bebas. tanpa di pantau. tanpa di kawal. azira, abstract sangat ni. -__- tapi tulah yang ana rasa. cuba, cuba dan terus cuba, tapi serasa macam semuanya berkait rapat. setiap satu pekerjaan ada kaitan. kalau dah macam tu macam mana nak lepaskan diri?

nak lari tapi badan tak mampu acano? *k gemok* takpe, tak boleh lari takpe, kita telan semua. telan je selagi mampu.. :) okay, take note, take note. sekarang kena tahan diri from cerita anything kat anyone. better simpan sebab kita tak tahu orang suka ke tak. walaupun diri tu memang suka bercerita sebenarnya.*gelenggeleng*

cuba senyum walaupun rasa plastik betul. cuba gelak walau terasa tak ikhlas. as long as orang tak boleh nak detect apa sebenarnya situasi kita. :) insyaAllah. ada je tempat nak bercerita, mengadu, minta pertolongan. mana lagi kalau bukan kepada Kekasih yang teragung, terutama tu. Allah SWT.

wallahualam. Jazaana waiyyakum. :)