Baby I

اَلسَّلَامُ عَلَيْكُمْ وَرَحْمَةُ اللهِ وَبَرَكَا تُهُ

Hello again. I'm still 39 weeks and 3 days pregnant. And Baby I  is still inside my womb. Happily and brutally kicking, tossing and turning inside my womb all day and night.

Sometimes, I had difficulties in breathing especially when I am laying on my bed, well to get a rest. I tried to walk around as much as I can. So, while I was resting yesterday, I scrolled through my photo album in my phone, I found a few photos of mine. To be honest, I didn't take that much photo of myself but videos of my stomach adalah. I won't uploaded it of course.

This picture was taken by Vincent, my office mate who sat beside me. I was in my first trimester at this time where I can get really really sleepy at anytime where I can't stop myself from dozing off. Well, actually I can be pretty obvious when I'm sleepy so that's the picture of me, sleeping with my forehead on my customer's documents. Before, I can't sit at my place in the office for so long without wearing sweater because tell you what. Right above my seat is an aircond blasting a really strong cold wind. But, a few months into the pregnancy, I find my seat is actually the most comfortable one. At home, I'll get all sweaty sekejap je, even when I'm asleep, I will not use the blanket at all and yet I will still sweat in my sleep while my husband akan berbungkus dengan selimut. :'D

I'm blessed to have a very supportive and caring office mates who take care of me throughout my pregnancy; asking about my health or even give me tips of becoming a parent. Making sure I eat the right food with the right proportion. Some even reminded me to not consume too much sweet or salty things due to my oedema and GDM diet. Some even force me to go to the prayer room to take  nap when I am clearly looking super sleepy. Haha. Because of my growing stomach, I can't sleep like the first photo anymore and I can't even sleep while resting my back on the chair I was sitting cause that means my face will be exposed. Haha. I can't fall asleep like that.

During my (was it 25 or 26 weeks?), my family in law ajak pergi holiday in Bali. Luckily, the maximum weeks that the airlines allows to fly is 27 weeks (if I remember it correctly). At that time, I thought it's tiring to walk around a lot, but no I was wrong for sure. Nowadays, walking like 20 steps is getting harder for me. I should have walk more back then. Lol.

My husband looking way too happy there. :P

Bali is the only place where we took a lot of pictures where my baby bump is already obvious. 

And here goes, the latest picture of myself where I can barely walk and I'm already on my MC considering my office is at the 3rd floor and there's no lift. I don't like sitting on a wheelchair. So I was embarrassed when my husband insisted to let me sit on one. Well honestly, I almost cried every time I tried to take one step. I can't describe the pain that I had to bear at that time. Sometimes I can walk properly but a second later, I can't even put my right foot on the floor. Apatah lagi I have to put all my weight on one. Every movement that involve legs actually will make me want to cry. Getting up from bed, pray, taking a bath, walk from my room to the kitchen. Even lying on bed pun can make me cry. 

So, baby I, Ibu dah getting better, I mean I can walk now even there are times where it's painful to walk. And insyaAllah, Ibu and Papi are ready to meet you :) Bila nak keluar ni sayang. Ibu pun dah tak lena tidur because the pubis symphysis pain dah hilang but now my backaches are back and my frequency of going in and out of the toilet are increasing. I woke up several times at night nowadays. Plus, your non-stop punching, kicking, tossing, turning and pushing are getting stronger now. Macam apa dah perut Ibu ni when you are doing all that. Kadang tu, I can tell it's either your elbow or tumit or lutut yang terbonjol kat perut Ibu. Sometimes, I think it's your butt bila tetiba je keras kat bahagian pusat ibu. Ibu kadang2 mengadu dekat Papi sebab when you do all that, I can hardly fall asleep, so Papi yang akan calm you down. But when Papi is not around, Ibu yang tepuk2 Baby I, like tepuk bontot baby bagi dia tidur tu. I don't know if it works but at least I think that calms me down.

A few more days left before your EDD but Baby I,  Papi and Ibu won't mind if you pop out earlier than that. :) 

Take care anak Ibu. See you soon. 

XOXO.