Being someone who actually have a hard time in conveying the feelings especially frustration and anger, hurts.

Because i tend to keep it to myself and when it becomes unbearable, i'll just cry while talking to someone about it. But lately i have develop a contradict action which is suppressing my needs to cry.

And also, i am trapped in a confined space for almost all day long. Office, my room, my car. The only time i get to breathe the fresh air is when i went out to buy my lunch, or walk from my car to the office as well as walk from my car to my house. Oh, when i opened the door for touchngo.

So basically, i'm so messed up inside but no one can actually see it or sensed it. Am i really belong somewhere? Will i ever feel belong anywhere? *aside from my family of course*

I just hope, HR will decline their request for the extension and just transfer me already. I have had enough.

Sometimes, all i need is for someone to listen to me, and just be there. Tell me that eventually everything will be okay and it's actually okay to cry.

All in all, because of all this i'm facing inside me, people always take advantage of me. Just because "she has a soft voice" and "sopan".

But people, please. That doesn't mean i don't have feelings.